Better yet, my Christmas was over at 6:00 PM.
Yes!
I hate Christmas, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
I was excited at first this year, because I was going to see all my family I haven't seen in years.
Well, I saw them alright, but it went awful.
Basically, my entire family is disappointed in me and pretty much all have been for the past year or so. Really only because of mistakes I have made in the past, and now that it is over with, they still don't forget it. Which they should.
During dinners of last night and tonight, it was constant nagging about my hair cut, the fact that I dropped out of school, the fact that I can't get a job. They all think I'm going to be a fucking bum.
And then my Dad tells me how fucking disappointed he is, and says that I am nothing but a liar and will end up a crack head like my Ma.
So, basically, Christmas leads to a lot of family bullshit that I really really fucking hate.
That's life man. People judge on what they see. If you met a guy who you know has murdered before, but has turned over a new leaf. You'd still be uncomfortable around that guy.
ReplyDeleteAnd if I've dropped out of school, have no job (and do drugs?) then I'm pretty sure my dad would be pretty disappointed in me. Try changing something, you're still young, try to find meaning in this life you live. Choose something to live for. Devote your life to cause. Don't let it go to waste. Choose something to live and die for.