Well what is this?

I figured I might as well make a blog speak my mind, post whatever the fuck I want because that is what this is for right? It's a blog.

I'll be updating this as often as I update my NG news posts, or maybe even more, and share this with Newgrounds everytime it is updated, via my news posts.

I am currently thinking of whether or not to hitch-hike in the summer to Vancouver, BC. I have some family and friends that I would like to visit there, and also some things I would like to check out.

I was talking tonight with a friend of my ex-girlfriend and she wants to go there too after a rave near by the city here, so her and I may be going together (that means I get to fuck her, ha) and with whoever else would be interested in coming.

My mum is out of rehab on Friday, that's tomorrow technically, seeing as right now here it is nearly 3:40 AM. I'm very excited for her to be coming home, and I am really hoping she comes out a much better person. I know things are going to be very different with our lives, and I'm hoping everything works out the way she wants.

She wrote a letter to herself as a thing in rehab, and mailed me it. It's a very interesting note about her feelings towards herself and other shit, and I kind of wouldn't mind sharing it, just to give people a feeling of what cocaine can make you think of yourself

"Dear Leslee,

This is your last week at Thorpe Recover Centre. Remember how you felt the day you came in to this wonderful place on Nov 9th. You were full of problems, sadness, confusion, shame, guilt, and self-hate.

A miracle happened in your heart and soul during your stay at Thorpe. The problems you had that seemed so big are either gone or put into perspective, with the gift of the Serenity Prayer you now have the courage to make changes and the other problems will soon be gone as well.

The sadness that you felt in your heart has been replaced with laughter. The confusion in your head has been replaced with organized thoughts and feelings. You have been freed from your shame and guilt, you have put it all in God's hands now.

The most beautiful miracle of all Leslee is during your stay at Thorpe you found true love. You have never felt true love before and you found it in yourself. You don't hate yourself anymore, you love yourself and it is forever. It feels so good. No one can ever take that love away from you.

You were never able to be in a relationship where you were truly happy in truly in love with a man. It was impossible for you because you couldn't love anyone without loving yourself first. Now it is possible for you to have a loving relationship filled with serenity.

Leslee, you will continue to grow and get stronger. Life will become more beautiful and peaceful every day. Always remember what you learned and how your life changed while you were at Thorpe. Take care of the wonderful person you become and have faith in yourself."

So that's that, I'm really happy to read that and know that she actually has faith in herself rather than the last time she tried rehab.

She took off a week in to it last time, and this time she last the full 5 weeks or however long it was.